Dealer (Photo credit: ΞD)
It was like I antied up as soon as
I entered the room. The cards,
my face-up hand, before me.
“What?” she said, and peered over her glasses
in that interrogatory way of hers.
It speaks louder than the bright lights
and rubber hose quality in her voice.
“What do you mean, ‘What’?” I said.
“I don’t know, something’s going on.
You look like you’re thinking,” she said.
Even though nothing was,
I immediately tossed in my hand.
Busted said my discard mush.
“Well, of course I’m thinking,” I stammered.
“I’d be going around bumping into things
like one of those little toy clown cars if I didn’t.”
She hmmphed her …aannnd? hmmph.
“Now you’re making fun of me.
You know what I mean,
something’s going on,
I can tell.”
This is why I never play poker.
My face, a fumble-fingered fish
in a casino of card sharks,
always expresses whatever I am feeling,
what I might possibly be thinking.
No matter how hard I try to control
these tics and twitches.
“Oh, nothing’s going on,” I said,
“Uh huh,” she said, unconvinced.
And then she smiled her selachimorphic smile
and dealt me another hand,
just to make sure.
The deafening dismissal I sense
from your silent indifference
has done its job, drying this public pen,
chasing me to the journal again –
the one I share with so very few.
I understand, you wanted
more from me,
from point of view I see,
even if it wasn’t true,
so long as it was about you.
And the other few.
But maybe you don’t care,
how some of us cannot share
beyond these letters we cast
to the storm-tossed and vast
in cursored bottle blinking
from depressed poet, oft sinking.
Mine would bear barely a label,
but always carried a fable,
a story, a confession,
and the implicit signature
in hope you got the impression
Piano-Bar (02) – 26Feb09, New Orleans (USA) (Photo credit: philippe leroyer)
The girl at the piano in this bar is singing what she called “our latest love song” and she’s singing the truth, because I can feel it even through the beer and the darkness.
This one is different from every other love song because she wrote it and she’s singing it— there in that cone of light— she’s singing it just for me.
I don’t even know her name, but she’s stared at me all the while she’s been playing, even clamming a few notes because I’m such a distraction and you know I’m the target of the arrow of her soul, her heart, her song, OUR song.
“Can I get another here, buddy?” I said to the barkeep, adding, “Would you just look at her, would you listen to her?”
And now she’s finished, and as I smooth my way around this rudely mumbing crowd to introduce myself and pledge my troth, I notice the white stick on the floor next to her bench, and I’m glad of all she’s reminded me about Love — artful Love, dream Love, her Love, my Love, our Love — how Love is blind, too.
Here is my latest Five Sentence Fiction offering, based on a prompt from Lillie McFerrin. This week: Awkward.
As September’s nights grow
longer and longer, larding on
harvests of autumn bleakness,
the late summer mornings don
shrouds of summer-mourning,
sunless except for the promise
of dawn trudging this way
from over the eastern rise.
New day reveals itself then,
not in light, because light
is something of yesterday
and the not yet today.
No, my awakening is in
the warmth next to me,
which is my everseason now.
Horse and poem street art (Photo credit: Marshall Astor – Food Fetishist)
I sit, sigh, breathe
and then I weave
such silly words,
like tortured birds,
And I hope my knots
can hold fast these thoughts
when by the road
I leave them.
Wondering if you’ll stop,
pick up what I dropped,
and when you read,
I don’t do rhyming poetry, so I don’t know why I did this. But I did. And that’s the poet’s lot, I guess. You don’t ask why or how or what you write, you just write. And then I leave it for you–whoever You are–to pick it up and do with it what you will.
There! Done! Sorry for the litter.
Back when life was as black and white
as the picture on the TV, but I had dreams
like Dali and Van Gogh fevers,
I would wake Saturdays before 7:00,
click on that glass-fronted magical
piece of furniture and stare at the whoooing
salt-and-pepper of its teeny screen’s jumble.
When the Indian Head test pattern appeared,
I knew I was mere minutes from visiting the bears,
dogs and sea serpent I’d waited all week for.
The only colors in the room came from
my dimly lit PJs, imagination, and handfuls
of sugar held together by a baked mash of grain
called breakfast I shoveled dry into my mouth.
These days I wake from dreamless sleep
at 5:00 AM and stare into the hi-def nightmare
of dolorous newscasts that bathe my
already too-gray life with their garish gore,
pied bar charts, and happy-talking hairdos
who paint it all into chiaroscuro philosophies
of right and wrong (or Right and Left).
They shovel all of this by the handfuls,
dry, into a head that would much prefer
the company of time-traveling canines,
pic-a-nic basket-filching bears, and a long green
Plesiosaur (an assumption proved true by color TV)
who would come and save me from all this severe
adulthood when I call, “Help, Cecil, help!”
A post-birthday Old Guy poem. Maybe some of you “seasoned media consumers” will get it.
Lights (Photo credit: williamhartz)
She loved this time, the first instance each show when she broke from behind the curtains and into the lights.
She can feel her power to draw the attention of men as well as women to her beautiful face, her seductive body, her magnetic being.
She reveled in the fact that every man out there wanted her and every woman sitting with that man secretly wanted to be her, sinuously slinking down the catwalk, head high, stride strong, to stop at its end, right hip, POP, left hip, POP, swirling turn, and show them the rear view is as good as the front.
The lights, she thinks, it’s the power of the lights that helps bring this power out of me, the light that loves me…Love…and this crowd loves me…Love.
Just listen to them, just…“Can I give your wheelchair a push, Mrs. Marmelstein, love?”
©Joseph Hesch 2012
This week’s little story is written in response to Lillie McFerrin’s Five-Sentence Fiction prompt “Memories.”